Pass me by. By Cesar Reyes

Pass me by

I blinked for a second and life passed me by

Life went by so fast I didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye

I blinked for a second I suddenly don’t know where I am

I feel like a kid in the body of a grown man

I blinked for a second and suddenly I’m surrounded by strangers and no friends

I never got a chance to say I was sorry and try to make amends

I blinked for a second and suddenly everyone was gone

I always thought I’d have enough time but I guess I was wrong

She's Gone. By Cesar Reyes

 
I always thought me and her would someday cross paths again
But instead she moved on,
And I’m still here wondering where that part of my life has been
 
I always thought we would be able to work through any problems that we had
But instead she walked down her own path
And I’m still here wondering how a good relationship went bad
 
I always thought our bond was too strong to shatter
But instead she made me into a distant memory
And I’m still here realizing how little I actually mattered
 
I always thought me and her had irreplaceable memories
But instead she constantly smiles and laughs without me
And I’m still here wondering if she considers me a friend or an enemy
 
I always thought that me and her were destined to go through life together
But instead I was wrong
And I’m still here wondering, how one day, one bad argument turned into forever

Shine. By Cesar Reyes

Shine

You shine like a rising sun

You stand out like a tigers eyes

You make the world a million times more fun

You give the kind of smiles that money never buys

You shine like a diamond ring

You stand out like a velvet rose

You shine like the light that only a star can give

You stand out like the truth amongst lies that have been exposed

You shine like a blazing fire

You standout like the frosting on a cake

Your the type of woman, other girls can admire

Your like a dream heaven made and I hope I never wake

Unsheltered Soul. By Cesar Reyes

I feel that as I was growing up I was too exposed
to life’s harsh realities
 
And over the years it was up to me to learn how to
Heal myself from those emotional brutalities
 
Even though at times I may sound remorseful
I do believe all of those experiences made me stronger
 
I learned that It is only through pain and sacrifice
That you can say you struggled but in the end conquered
 
I have to admit that the most helpful thing in life
Was feeling lost, like my life had no obvious direction
 
It was helpful to me because I was able to figure out my life
And I gained much needed wisdom and eternal comprehension.
 
I found out the hard way, that you can’t trust just anyone
And for the purposes of value all relationships must be measured
 
There are people that are not worth the time
Regardless, if they bring you any form of pleasure
 
I feel like I was born with the innocent smile of a child
But that smile is one that life stole
 
Today I feel like a free spirit
Even though I have grown up an unsheltered soul
 

Things that I've done. By Cesar Reyes

At times I want to make changes on things that ive done

But even though life’s not perfect

As far as past regrets go, I have none

But going forward, I am trying to work a lot harder

Im trying to be closer to god

And as far as important life decisions go, I just have to be smarter

I have to start to open my eyes and really begin to see

That every day has to mean something

If I truly want to be the wise person I want to be

The only decision left is whether or not my life is a purposeful one

Because if it is

Then I have to always be proud of the things that ive done

Small Life Lessons. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes you have to look through tears to be able to see clear

There will be times in life where in order to find courage, you have to accept fear

More than once in life, you will have to start all over again

But you will progress faster if you remember the lessons from the situations life put you in

Emptiness will unfortunately become familiar, and there is many ways to fill that space

Have faith in Christ , and in return he will fill your life with his divine grace

At times you will feel lost, and all your options will all seem the same

Take time with whatever decision you make, take life seriously and remember that your lifes not a game

Make sure you always leave room for at least one good deed for the day

To do so will leave your life blessed and will those who doubt your intentions, with nothing to say

Walk with pride and dignity in every step the you make

We only get one shot at life, so make sure your always fortunate for each breath that you take

The Next New Day. By Cesar Reyes

It feels like a momentary eternity

The disappearing darkness that starts the day

I looked up at the heavens with uncertainty

Its still to early for me to find my way

I feel the cold wind that never seems to be able to find itself sleeping

It must be what always keeps the birds awake

I am careful not to step on the drenched grass that looks like its been weeping

But then I turn to watch the new day and the remaining life of the old one that it takes away

As I walk through the changing shadows I am carefully suspicious

But all the same I still stop and I quickly kneel so I can pray

The world out there may not be so friendly; it might be cruel and vicious

So please god grant me the will to make it to see the next new day

I'm still alive. By Cesar Reyes

I’m still alive

When it becomes an option to just roll over and die

And you stay up at night and feel the tears in your eyes

And you feel absolutely nothing inside

But for the sake of others, it’s something you try to hide

And you sit and wonder if anyone else is going through shit in their lives

Trying to get past peoples bullshit and lies

Constantly comparing you, and why can’t you be like this?, why can’t you be like that?

It’s unbearable to contemplate how your mind can take so much crap

You become like a zombie who keeps on living but whose vital signs are essentially flat

And its moments like those you wonder where your true friends are at

It’s like it never goes away, and you wake up with tears because you even cry when you dream
 
You become a victim of circumstance, and you’re a slave to routine
 
But nothing is ever as bad as it seems
 
Somewhere out there, there are people who have seen what you’ve seen
 
And they came back and survived
 
They conquered and strived
 
In the face of personal collapse and in the shadow of death to the next day they still arrived
 
When life gave them its worst they had the strength to scream out and say
“I’m still alive"

Backstabbed (artwork). By Cesar Reyes

Until we meet again. By Cesar Reyes

I’m not sure how we got so far apart
And now neither of us can think of one word to say
I guess I expected it to end up like this from the start
Still close in distance, yet it feels like you’re so far way

Now it even feels awkward when I say hello
Whatever we were is just waiting to be buried
I think on many levels we were both trying to let go
Down the line at some point, I use to picture us getting married

I have no animosity towards you
Even though we are basically strangers now,
you can hold on to my respect
It’s probably best that I disappear from you
And I hope this compromise is one that you won’t reject

I’m basically asking you to forget what we became
And only remember the innocent place we both started in
Maybe in the future things can change
So let’s just say goodbye for now until we meet again

Crossroads. By Cesar Reyes

Crossroads


In the absence of absolute certainty

When doubt circles your heart
like a flock of vultures

In the face of pessimism and adversity

When your lack of strength
almost feels like torture

It is possible to look up at an empty sky and find hope

It’s like your heart knows something, without really knowing

It gives you the right words
with which you can cope

And gives you a purpose in life
to keep on going

When you feel a void
that’s so consuming

Like a lack of warmth
that’s made your life ice cold

When sunshine fades behind dark clouds and you feel a storm looming

And you feel caught up in a free fall with nothing solid around you can hold

As hopeless as it may seem

It is possible to accept those circumstances

Across the timeline of your life, most problems only last as long as a bad dream

Then you move on to see where the next roulette ball bounces

More Often. By Cesar Reyes

I wish I saw you more often than our present rate of communication

But I hope you know that every second I spend with you is of the most sincere appreciation

If it was up to me I would greet you every day with a friendly hug, just so you didn’t forget I’m here

It seems like I never see you that much, until out of nowhere we both suddenly appear

I hope you don’t just see me as a casual acquaintance, because I happen to consider you a good friend

I guess in the back of my mind I fear that you’ll get tired of me if I saw you more than just now and then

I underestimated the power of a smile, until you gave me a reason to smile for

I underestimated the power of a frown, until you showed how sadness was something I could ignore

I can see how some people will never understand the friendship a man and woman can share

But until they have a friend like you, as far there opinion goes I don’t really care

I hope after you read this it’s followed by a smile

And that hopefully the next time I see you I won’t be that long of a while

Why I write. By Cesar Reyes

I often read and I often write

To see if there others out there
Who fight the same battles I fight

I often think and get lost in thought

Is this pain unique?
Or is this something that happens to people a lot

I often hope and I often prey

For a cure or vaccine
To these things that I deal with every day

I often walk through crowds
And see something common in our faces

Is this something we go through sometimes?
Or is this something we all must deal with on a daily basis

I often lack courage but only sometimes get scared

If I disappear tomorrow I just want to know
That there was someone out there
Who could relate or at the very least cared

Silent Thoughts. By Cesar Reyes

Silent Thoughts

I walk alone down a broken alley
I fall asleep in the fields of a lonely valley

I cry for all those who suffer and I pray for them
I’m nothing now, I’m not what I was then

I have no strength, I have no voice
I have no friends, I have no choice

I carry a broken heart I don’t know how to mend
I wrote a million poems I don’t know who to send

I have a million tears I don’t know how I got
I don’t bleed but inside I really hurt a lot

To be nothing is to have nothing
So that what I am
More than a boy, but far less than a man

I’m cautious about being happy
Because the higher I go
The harder I will fall
here is no light at the end of the tunnel
just a dark brick wall

I want to live underwater where you cannot cry
Be part of the eternal ocean live forever and never die

I want to spend my life chasing sunsets
just before they go down
Just me, and nature with peace and tranquility all around

Lost Dream (artwork) By. Cesar Reyes

When I was a little boy. By Cesar Reyes

When I was a little boy
I smiled and ran on the sand
Now I worry and stand in line

When I was a little boy
I played and drew pictures on my hand
Now I have to make sure I pay my bills on time

When I was a little boy
I played with any girl on the monkey bars 
Now I worry that women are just after my money

When I was a little boy
I had a set of little toy cars,
Now when I play with them people look at me funny

When I was a little boy
I hugged my mom every chance I had
Now I’d rather everyone just left me alone

When I was a little boy
I was always smiling I was never sad
Now I don’t even come home

When I was a little boy
I was always short and I was always looking up
Now I reminisce and remember my past days of fun

When I was a little boy
I could not wait to grow up
Now I wish that I was still that young

To be a Man. By Cesar Reyes

To be a man

To be a man is to not have to depend on others for your own achievements

And be able to except a helping hand

To have self confidence, but not be arrogant

And to know the difference between the two

To ignore inner turmoil, grasp inner peace

And always strive for over all tranquility

To never fear love, but not confuse it with lust

And know that the two are as different as tears and rain

To have faith but not be ruled by farfetched dreams

And know when your being guided and when your being misled

To brush off insults, but also never make yourself an easy target for them

And be strong enough to never allow words to cut though you

To have pride , but admit when your wrong

And be able to live with and learn from your mistakes

To die for your honor , but no be afraid to be a bigger man

And know when its ok to just walk away

To know your boundaries, but know when you must cross them

And be aware of the consequences for your crossing them

To strive to be happy, but never allow happiness to distract you from the problems at hand

And know that a true man can never live worry free

To be able to swim through the vast mud’s of peer pressure

And be able to walk out without a stain

To have the strength to fight for what you believe in, and give beyond 100%


And know in your heart that as long as you do that you can never really fail.

Until then....by Cesar Reyes

Until Then

When the sky rains rose petals
And the angels and spirits whisper your name

When the lions walk across oceans
And the sick children finally feel no more pain

When the poor and the hungry are swimming in wealth
And there are no tears left to fall

When the ice dances on the sun
And the ants stampede and stand tall

When the last hear is broken
And the oceans stand still

When the mute and deaf have spoken
And there are finally no prisons to fill

When the last bullet has been shot
And the last wave has washed up on the shore

When the last rain drop has fallen
And there is finally no soldiers left to fight all the wars

When all of my strength is gone and my knees hit the floor

Then I will finally be over you and love you no more

Floating Thoughts by Cesar Reyes

Floating Thoughts

Alone in this world trying to resist conformity
Betrayed and imprisoned by lifelong loyalties
Struggling to be an individual
And still maintain all my normality
Healing from past relationships
That were emotional fatalities
Fresh tears and cold bears
are the formula for destruction
Always tempted but never giving in to evil seduction
All this bullshit gives me an empty feeling deep inside
I try to not show it,
but sometimes is something I just cant hide
And I struggle with this,
Even when I think I cant deal with it anymore
I feel like im being judged
1 point for personality
And 10 million for décor
Most people will never see past
whats in front of their own two eyes
Most outer beauty is an illusion in disguise

Love is.....by Cesar Reyes

Love is…..

Love is this , love is that
Love is bliss, love is pain
Love is sunshine, love is rain
Love is smiles, love is tears
Love is courage, love is fear
Love is worth living for, love is worth dying for
Love is worth staying for
Love is worth traveling more
Love is what makes worries scatter
If you ever find love, then nothing else matters