A Lonely Penny. By Cesar Reyes

In your moment of need

Who was really there

Who really keeps you from falling

Who takes the time from there schedule

Who goes out of there way

Im like a penny on the ground

No matter how bright I try to shine

Im not worth much to a lot of people

A penny is the only thing

You cant change

It is what it is, you cant make

Any more cents from it

People can always live without a penny

This is my life, this is my net worth

A lonely penny

I am stronger. By Cesar Reyes.

I’m thankful for having met you

I’m sorry if I let you down

I fell asleep to the very thought of you

When I was lost you turned my life around

You were all my strength, all my might

Woke up to you in the morning

Thought of you in the afternoons

I dreamt of you at night

You showed me what I could do

With the strength you gave my heart

A timeline of arguments , laughs , and tears.

Culminating with me and you apart

Seeing you smile has been my greatest joy

I didn’t mind being your puppet

Except you treated me like a worthless toy

Despite it all, good or bad , the memories are all mine,

I will never forget you ,i will remember you for all time

It's not easy. By Cesar Reyes

We are the sum of all the choices we make
Tomorrows beginning will always depend on today’s last steps that we take
 
It’s not easy to find the right path
It’s like we have all the right numbers but we can’t add up the math
 
Most people will never know the story behind the path you had to take
Most people will never know the lifelong sacrifices you constantly have to make
 
As time passes, we often wonder how we got here
It doesn’t feel like we made the choice, but more like we just suddenly appeared
 
Days seem shorter, as time passes by
It would seem that for every second you pause, the world moves on in the blink of an eye
 
 

Backwards Opposite. By Cesar Reyes

Some people dare to dream
But I have a refusal to fail
Some people have the courage to speak up
I have the strength to stay silent
Some people look for love
I am of the opinion that love will find me
Some people forgive and forget
I ignore and move on
Some people lack self confidence
I lack arrogance
Some people feel lost in their lives
But I just feel like I’m patiently trying to find my way
Some people feel there painfully suffering from depression
I happily smile and call their pain “Life”
 
 

Pressure. By Cesar Reyes

So much pressure, so much to do
I’m realizing that previous realities didn’t turn out to be true
So much to learn, so little time
So many things I have to do in this short life of mine
I’m living day to day, while planning for tomorrow
I feel like going door to door and asking if they have some strength that I can borrow
I have nothing left, but i still keep on going
I sound pessimistic, but I still have hope even if it’s something I’m not showing
I often feel lost, but life does not have a map
People tend to have ulterior motives, and there life advice often turns out to be a trap
I carry so much pressure that people cant see
I have come to realize that I am a person that people admire, but who never want to be

Better Left Unsaid. By Cesar Reyes

 
I’m not gonna say, you look like an angel
Because I’ve never seen one, and because no one’s perfect, and none of us are angels
But I can honestly tell you that besides heaven I can’t think of any other place that you might have come from
 
I’m not gonna say, you look beautiful
Because everyone says that to everybody, and you deserve more than that
But I can honestly tell you that your beauty is the equivalent of a sunset, you almost don’t want to blink so that you don’t miss a second of it, until its gone. And when its gone you wait patiently for the sunrise
 
I’m not gonna say, your eyes are like the stars
Because stars are essentially just shiny dots in the sky
But I can honestly tell you that it would probably be worth it a thousand times over to get lost in your eyes than get lost amongst the stars
 
I’m not gonna say you have a nice smile
Because I wouldn’t feel right saying it, unless I knew which smile was genuine and which one was a picture pose
But I can honestly tell you that you genuinely smile when I’ve seen you with your son
 
I’m not gonna say you have a great personality
Because I don’t really know you as well as I wish I did
But I can honestly tell you that the very little that I did get to know, was an honor, privilege, & pleasur

Easy Girl. By Cesar Reyes

               

A guy could very easily fall in love with you
But I would feel scared to fall for you, because I’m pretty sure my heart is the one that would get broken
so I promised myself that I wouldn’t
 
A guy could easily not care about the rest of the world, when they are with you
That’s why I try to stay far away from you,
 Because you would be all I cared about
 
A guy could easily want to be with you as much as possible
This is why I try not to talk to you, because I would miss you
And it would drive me crazy not knowing when I would see you again
 
A guy could easily want to promise you everything you’re heart desired
But I know that I could not deliver all of those things to you
That’s why I painfully can’t promise you anything
 
A guy could easily meet you only once, for a brief second and never forget you until their dying day
That is how I know I will never forget you
And you will stay with me, until I’m old and grey

In your eyes. By Cesar Reyes

In your eyes I can fall asleep

In your eyes is where I can truly rest

In your eyes, it is easier to dream

In your eyes is where I can really see you

In your eyes anything is possible

In your eyes I can disappear

In your eyes you have my trust

In your eyes I smile

In your eyes I am careless

In your eyes I can forget about where I am

In your eyes I seem happier

In your eyes I don’t see perfection, but I do see truth

 

 

A dead rose. By Cesar Reyes

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that the touch of your warm hands will make it come back to life

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you might smile at it, and in your smile the rose might find new hope even after it's petals have lost their beauty and lust.

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you might hug it, and while it's being hugged , it feels like it's in heaven

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you keep it and the rose feels like it's your angel

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that might always know, that as long as it's around you , a dead rose will always feel alive.

Parte de mi. By Cesar Reyes

Te considero parte de mi Alma
Te considero parte de mi corazon
Te considero parte de mi Vida
Te considero parte de mi inspirasion
Te considero en todas mis orasiones
Te considero la mas noble amistad
Te considero por las sonrisas que me pones
Te considero porque tu Siempre me dises la Verdad
Te considero parte de mis suenos
Te considero parte de mis pensamientos
Te considero por todos Los momentos tan pequenos
Te considero porque aunque en la Vida nos perdemos, Siempre hayamos manera que nos encontremos.

Sin Miedo. By Cesar Reyes

Si yo le temiera al mar
Y tu fueras una sirena
Yo me converteria en un marinero

Si yo le temiera a lo alto del cielo
Y tu fueras una nube
Yo aprenderia a volar un avion

Si yo le temiera a lo escuro de la noche
Y tu fueras una estrella
Yo me converteria en un astronauta

Si yo le temiera a la lumbre
Y tu estubieras un un edificio con fuego
Yo me converteria en un bombero

Si yo le temiera a lo frio
Y tu fueras una mujer de nieve
Yo me converteria en un indio eskimo

Si yo le temiera a la felizidad
Y tu le temieras a la tristesa
Yo me converteria en tu propio payaso

I wanted to die. By Cesar Reyes

As I lay on a million blades of grass
Blanketed by the icy wind in the dead of night
Piercing and taunting me
I slowly whispered to myself that I wanted to die
And the more that I told myself that
I kept getting reasons to live
I kept trying to figure out how emptiness can hurt
How can not feeling anything inside of you feel painful
My eyes feel drowsy and tired
But I can't seem to sleep
Dangerous thoughts, Streaks of tears
My arms stretched out like I wanted to fly
But instead I just fell to the ground
And as I lay there alone
With only paralyzing pain to keep me company
And even though death held a door open just for me
I never felt so alive

Climbing. By Cesar Reyes

Everyday i open my eyes

I convince myself its a new start

But with each passing day , I grow tired of

always starting at the beginning

I soon see that milestones are only a fraction

of the growing mountain, to conquer lifes battles

Always climbing and never being able to say im done

You have to always climb, because the moment you dont

is the moment you fall

My Chick friend. By Cesar Reyes

I want to tell my chick friend
 That ill always be with you until the end
That I give to you my heart and my soul
 And that making you happy is my life’s only goal
I promise to be your tissue to wipe all your tears
I promise to be your sword to destroy all your fears
I want to be the shoulder you lean on when you feel weak
I want to be the ear you confide in with all the secrets you keep
Drink coffee together at sunrise, and a beer at the sunset
Anything’s possible with us , we could jump in the ocean and not come out wet
We have the ability to some how just get lost in time
I don’t know how I found you, but I thank god your mine
I don’t care what happened at the beginning, but I fear someday our friendship could end
These are just a few things
I want to tell my chick friend

In the mirror. By Cesar Reyes

You are the one I respect
You are the one I admire
I can read your soul
I am fueled by your fire

It’s a shame I admire you
For your inability to feel pain
Its like your oblivious to the world
You have ice in your veins

I know what you are capable of
And where your weaknesses lie
I lived through your nightmares
But don’t have the strength to see you cry

So much you will never know
For you at night I prey to Christ
If you only knew my adulation for you
And how much I’ve sacrificed

Performing Artist. By Cesar Reyes

 
I sit in this coffee shop with real artists, poets and musicians
Most of them breath and dream creations from here to infinity
Next to them I have no vision , I have no ability
There art is bold and controversial
My creations seem generic and commercial
Half of them look like tweekers and escaped cons
I was confident when I came up here
But now all that is gone
I’m too responsible to be a poet
My heart is too soft, my strength just isn’t enough
Life’s been too easy on me,
I haven’t suffered or had it rough
I Cant be a musician Cuz I have no rhythmic flow
I got have good ideas
But they have no nowhere to go
I've never found out if I had artistic expression
Im not an artist , but art is still my obsession
Art is like a drug, to create it is to take a hit or make an injection
It all echoes with out timelines, you cant make a projection 
Art is vague but it is delivered with precision
But at the end , it gives enough clarity to help guide decisions

I don't know anymore. By Cesar Reyes

I Don't Know Anymore

I see you in front of me
But it like your a million miles away
I hear you
But it's like I'm listening to my past
I'm trying to talk to you
But I don't get the feeling my words are resonating
I know who u are
But I get this feeling like I'm talking to a stranger
I know I still care about you
But I have to remember why
I could rip a picture of you and me apart
But when I try to put it back together, it doesn't seem the same

I met you.By Cesar Reyes

I met you

12 billion years ago the universe the universe exploded into stardust
And 12 billion years later I met you
There is 27 thousand students at this college
But out of 27 thousand I met you
People will normally see 800 to 900 people a day
But out of those 800 to 900 i met you
The human mind can produce 70,000 thoughts per day
But out of those 70,000 the most beautiful one I have is the one of you
The brain can hold up to 3 million hours of information
But out of all those 3 million hours, I only care about the moment when i met you