Pain. By Cesar Reyes

I never thought I could feel this kind of pain

I feel like they’ve ripped out my heart and slashed out my veins

I never thought tears could be this cold

At times I think I will die alone and old

I never thought I could have loved that much

To depend on somebody to the point that they’re like a crutch
 
I never thought you could love someone and in return they could treat you so cruel

 To have intelligence, but to have them make you act like a fool

I never thought I could feel this weak

I’m not dead yet , but my diagnosis seems bleak

I never thought I could be this lost
 
I’d like to figure out where I am in life, at any cost

I never thought I could be this alone

No mail , no messages, no rings from my phone

I never thought things could get any worse

I still haven’t figured out why love is a blessing and a curse

 I never thought I could hurt inside to this degree

They say love is blind, I guess because the tears don’t let you see

 I never thought wounds could heel

In fact I still don’t , so just imagine how I feel

Through My Mind. By Cesar Reyes

 
I stroll through hurricanes,
as I’ve conquered bigger obstacles than hurricanes see
Poetry is my blood, my soul, they cant take it from me
Keep marching , keep swinging, till life’s battles are won
Its all an eternal struggle that can never be done
Cry fire and feel pain that nobody knows
Constantly being challenged, but I guess that’s just how life goes
There’s is no limit to where my words can be heard
Courage comes naturally, to me fear is absurd
Every step, every breath, every time that I fall
I leap higher, I breath harder, more than before I stand tall
 I am reborn like a speeding bullet blasted from a gun
Nobody can stand in my way, I am the one and only one
 I have just enough strength to accomplish what god set me out to do
Don’t care for pessimists ,I don’t have time for you
The strength of a bear, freedom of an eagle, heart of a lion
I have a destiny , I wont allow anyone to be denying
Yet I was born to suffer,in order to understand and write poems to heel peoples wounds
Build my life up with care , even when catastrophe , lingers and looms
I aim high with my goals, I might as well be leaping off a tower
Yet in the face of adversity, is the only place where I can show my true power

I’m in Control . By Cesar Reyes

You don’t know me that well

You may be able to read between the lines

 But you cant read my heart or my mind

You will always know, only what I let you in to see
 
I maintain the distance between you and me

I will not be defined based on one poem or a few tears

I am a prodigy of my universe that has expanded over the years

Sometimes shit is bad, sometimes it’s good

It’s a necessity to be mad, its part of life I wouldn’t stop it even if I could

So fuck you, fuck him, and fuck her

I don’t need you to understand me;

I just needed you to know

That I’m moving at the speed of life and you’re too fucking slow

Lessons I have learned. By Cesar Reyes

 
Tears in my hands are better than blood on my wrists

You can cry for a life time but blood like happiness is in short supply

Love can be amazing, if you don’t let it blind you

Do not allow people to use and control you

Darkness will consume you if you never look for the light

Remember that you are only as good as your last step

Rainbows can only be formed after a storm

And Sooner or later we all have dues that we have to pay to move on

Life is one long roller coaster ride, you have your ups and downs

So its ok from time to time to just throw your hands in the air

and scream to get through it

Never think of yourself as lonely, only as an individual

who for a rain drop in the hurricane of life is walking down their own path

Loneliness will poison you, if you don’t have the courage to walk down your own path

Irresponsibility will distract you , unless you have the wisdom to stay focused

Love will depress you if you do not recognize your own worth

Laughter can distract you, if you learn how to control certain distractions

Tears can blind you, if you don’t find out how to take them away

 Envy will destroy you if you’re not thankful for all that you have

Life has no soundtrack . By Cesar Reyes

If we could live our lives inside of a song
 
In a five minute period our world could come together in a perfect equilibrium

I live in the real world Where life has no perfect Harmony

There is no song that plays in the background when you are sad

The screen in front of you doesn’t fade to black until you die
 
The good guy doesn’t always get the girl

Pain and struggles are a constant way of life
 
They are not something that last only a few days

Personal accomplishments and goals are not everlasting

They are just steps we build to get to the next step

There is no pause button, so enjoy your smiles but keep on stepping

There is no fast-forward so have the patience to achieve every step the right way

There is no rewind so learn from every misstep that you make

There are more questions than answers

And everything doesn’t get tied up in the end

Despite all the colors that exist,

The world is just a beautiful simple vomited complication of different shades of grey

Where my life is going. By Cesar Reyes

 
I got goals and accomplishments,
but I don’t know where my life is going
I have complaints and aggravations, I’m not supposed to be showing
I got a list of shit to do, but none of it personally matters to me
I have about a million other places I’d much rather be
I don’t even feel lost any more;
it’s more like I’m on a train that doesn’t stop
I feel like I hit the high point of my life already and this is the scary steep drop
I get so fed up sometimes that tears fall from my eyes, but I wouldn’t say that I’m crying
I may get a clean bill of health, but I know there’s a part of my soul that’s dying
I do all that I can, but it never seems like enough
I am fully aware at all times that in comparison to other people my life is not that rough
I don’t really care sometimes about anyone, and I’m just keeping it real
I do care about others most of the time and that contradiction is just how I honestly feel
I want to rebuild my image that currently looks like a mirror that’s slightly shattered
I want to make a difference in the world, or at the very least matter