Thinking at the speed of light. By Cesar Reyes

Thinking at the speed of light,
so I can hopefully escape the darkness that surrounds me,
but cannot penetrate my heart or consume my soul,
and even though I have faith in the ultimate success of my aspirations and goals,
I am prepared for a long battle up ahead.

When a friendship dies. By Cesar Reyes

A friendship dies
When it is cut up with lies
The bond is shattered
When promises are broken , explanations do not matter
The trust is strong
But can disintegrate like a cloud when it is wronged
It’s a unique kind of pain
You can feel the betrayal inside of your veins
To give your trust to someone and ask for silence in return
Instead they release it so fast , you would think it was causing them to burn
Poems and songs are written about love , about the pain and sadness it can bring
But what can be spoken of friendship, does it not count for anything?
It brings and provides a certain reliability
If you have a good friendship, I believe your soul has a special nobility
In contrast, if you should have a friendship die
Well I honestly believe your soul can go ice cold and even cry

Grieving. By Cesar Reyes

Life is a lonely fucken road
Everyone has to carry something in life and
 I guess pain was chosen to be my given load
 
I never for saw obstacles like this as a kid
I didn’t think I would have to accomplish things on my own to the extent that I did


I often hope god comes down and tells me the meaning of all existence
 And where I fit into his divine plan
Because so far as I’ve seen things I am not a big fan

I want to no what’s worse, to have the world end or to have to bury your loved ones one by one as they are slowly taken by time

 I want to understand why when you lose your pride,
 and have to beg on the corner for food, people have the nerve to call it a crime

 I usually am able to deal with this shit calmly , but like everyone I have my days
 Life can get the better of some people , but I have my own ways

I think life is a stone that is cast and ocean is vast
Cold bears and warm tears temporarily help you reminisce on the past

 I often feel that my life is a lie ,
and that those closest to me im always deceiving
Its just that they don’t know , that behind each smile im constantly grieving

If. By Cesar Reyes

If I disappear tomorrow

If you just forget my name

If you should find a better poet

Just know right now that because of you my life will never be the same

If I become a memory

If that memory of me should fade

If you just grow tired of me

Just know right now that in my life there was a special roll you played

If our destiny’s keep us together

If they decide to take us in separate ways

If you never really liked my poems

Just know right know that I will never forget you for the rest of my living days

If us meeting each other was a coincidence

If it was written in the stars

If you should find my poems 50 years from now


Just know right know that there is no “I”, in the memories we call ours

Crazy Silence. By Cesar Reyes

Extensive silence
Enclosed all around
Leaving me mindless
And insanity bound

I just wanted to be left alone
But I took it too far
Not even a ring on my phone
My life's one step past bizarre

Lost with so many choices
I can't even sit still
My thoughts sound like whispering voices
Life's been broken down as just time to kill

Maybe none of this is real
And we're all part of a dream
Maybe this isn't truly how I feel
And nothing is as it seems

Ratera. By Cesar Reyes

Me robaste mi tiempo
Me robaste mi amor
Y ahora cuando miro al futuro
Ya no me queda el valor

Te robaste mi alma
Te robaste mi corazón
Quedaste gravada en mi mente
Como una triste canción

Me quitaste mis sueños
Pisoteaste mis esperanzas
Domas con pensar lo que me hiciste
Me da grima en la pansa

Te valió puro gorro
Te valió pura madre
Ya cuando supe la mujer que verdaderamente eras
Se me hiso muy tarde

Lessons in Pain. By Cesar Reyes

I learned to live with pain

I found out that a fractured heart can heal itself even if it feels like it got hit by a train

I learned to control my anger

I found out how to ignore those who hurt you and treat those bastards like total strangers

I learned how to not cry

I found out that little by little, tears eat away at me and cause my soul to die

I learned how to just move on

i found out that dueling on the negativity in life is just wrong

I learned how to live in peace and tranquility

I found out that you can be alone and not feel lonely and that doing so can be an admirable ability

I learned how to know when it is that your feeling loves powerful emotion

I found out that it's simply a beautiful, painful, tearful, angry, blissful distortion

I got too many things on my plate. By Cesar Reyes

 I got friendships that were not meant to last
I got feelings of love I wish were left in my past
I got compliments from people who say my poems are good
I got insults from people who hate them and say at least I did the best that I could
 I got enemies out there who want me dead
 I got regrets in my heart for things I wish Id never said
I got the urge to want to drink my problems away with a bottle of Hennessy
I got actual friends that are friends with my enemies
I got fears and aggravations that I’ve never defeated
I got milestones and goals that I’ve never reached or completed
 I got a hard time being happy cuss I’m not familiar with cheer
 I got a hit list of enemies who I want to make disappear
I got to learn how to not fall in love
I got only one chance to make it into the golden gate up above
I got so cold one time I literally felt it down to my bones
I got a feeling, I’m a end up drunk and alone
I got to keep my enemies a lot closer than my friends
I got to worry less about how things start and control how they end
I got a memory of me smiling , but then again It might have all been a dream
I got only one best friend , but then again , nothing is ever what it seems
I got a tear that just refuses to fall off of my eye
I got a bad reputation with people, but in reality im a really nice guy
I got caught up one time in my own lie
I got to try to buy a fake ID and see if there's a new life I can buy

Somewhere deep inside. By Cesar Reyes

It is not a simple thing to want to keep the peace in this thing we call life
What seems like such a noble goal
Has a trail built on sacrifice
 
Constantly feeling pressured, as though the walls are closing in
Being judged and labeled by others
Without them knowing the battles where you’ve been
 
On some levels I feel that we are all trying to hide
Trying to keep a balance inside the world
Without losing a drop of pride
 
But when the normality that others live by,
becomes a set of norms from which you cannot abide
At the very least try to maintain your own peace somewhere deep inside
 
 

Salvation. By Cesar Reyes

 Im working hard for my salvation by my own hand ,

Any other way , and I would not consider myself a man
 
All that’s required is already in my possession

All the mistakes ive made I just consider valuable lessons

 Im trying to convert my ideas into reality
before they fade or I get rotten

Ive chosen a road , long thought to be lost and forgotten

 I feel like the world left me behind and no one hears
the words that I say

Im a dreamer by night time and a wanderer by day

Often pondering my existence , and truly believing that I am forsaken
 
Trying to paint my soul , before it becomes just another one that society has taken

 All I want out of life is to be considered and to be remembered

For people to say that no matter what pain I endured I prevailed and never surrendered

 I understand that tears are a part of life
And that my eyes may drop some here or there

We’re all lonely people, but I don’t think anyone’s aware

The alternative to these things in life is to conform into society’s mundane creations

So it looks like ill have to be the creator of my own salvation

Confessions of an unknown man. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes I have had to put up fake smiles
Even when the inside of me doesn’t agree
I can afford car payments
But cant afford to be angry, because certain people just wont let me be
There are moments of silence that feel like forever
I’ve done scandalous things in life, but I don’t feel bad
Sometimes I just want to be left alone
Despite what I said its ok to be mad
I have been made fun of, and I have been insulted
I have put my trust in people who I know have a reputation of lying
I have cried enough tears in my opinion
And have felt so much pain, I’m surprised I’m not dying
I have felt so empty inside
That I’ve literally looked down to make sure my insides are still there
Why do bad things happen to good people I ask
At times I prey for the courage to tell god he’s not fair
I have been in love
And I have also had my heart ripped out and destroyed
I have felt so weak at times
 I could not even be helped by any steroid
I’ve been lied to my face
And my so called friends knew all along
I guess shit just happens
And life somehow just goes on

Persevere and try. By Cesar Reyes

Throughout the failure and the sorrow
When you helplessly want to cry
When pride is something you must swallow
Still you persevere and try
 
When you carry a weight on you that feel like boulders
With a drop off point that turned out to be a lie
And even though you feel like you can’t continue with so much crap on your shoulders
Still you persevere and try
 
Life is a freefall from the get go
But we all do our best to fly
Part of living is learning how to let go
We all have the same end, but still we persevere and try
 
I know I paint a gloomy picture
You can judge and label me as you will
But somewhere it is written deep in scripture
That we must persevere and try still
 
This isn’t a poem about rainbows and butterflies
Or about why roses are red and violets are blue
Its more about a soul that silently cries
Spoken daggers that speak  nothing but the truth
 
 
 
 
 

Never. By Cesar Reyes

No one will ever love you as much as I do
 
I will never love anyone if I ever lose you

 No one will ever give you the smiles that only I know how to make

 I will always wait for you as long as it takes

No one will ever defend you to the extent that I would

 I will gladly give you my heart if I could

No one will ever work for your love as hard as I will
 
I will always be there for you and understand every feeling you feel

No one will ever sacrifice as much as I have
 
I will do it all over again, even if it simply made you glad

No one will ever take care of you the way I have even on your darkest day

I will always come through on every word that I say

No one will give you as many memories as you and I have made

I will always be 100 % sure that my love for you will never fade

No one will ever appreciate your cute subtle ways

I will never abandon you, my soul is yours until the end of days

Lessons. By Cesar Reyes

Certain things you can see clearer when you close yours eyes

 Loving someone is the closest you can ever come to flying

Sometimes a hug can feel better than a kiss

Love has many keys’

Your heart has many doors

At times you have to let go in order to move on

Some moments seem like eternities

Hate and anger can make people fight

 So can hope and love

Its normal to be scared
 
Some people don’t even have the courage to speak up

 Pain is unfortunate

But always common

Smiles are hard to come by

But make good memories
 
Dogs are more loyal than humans

Misery is more reliable than happiness

 Life is to short
 
Enjoy every minute

Pain. By Cesar Reyes

I never thought I could feel this kind of pain

I feel like they’ve ripped out my heart and slashed out my veins

I never thought tears could be this cold

At times I think I will die alone and old

I never thought I could have loved that much

To depend on somebody to the point that they’re like a crutch
 
I never thought you could love someone and in return they could treat you so cruel

 To have intelligence, but to have them make you act like a fool

I never thought I could feel this weak

I’m not dead yet , but my diagnosis seems bleak

I never thought I could be this lost
 
I’d like to figure out where I am in life, at any cost

I never thought I could be this alone

No mail , no messages, no rings from my phone

I never thought things could get any worse

I still haven’t figured out why love is a blessing and a curse

 I never thought I could hurt inside to this degree

They say love is blind, I guess because the tears don’t let you see

 I never thought wounds could heel

In fact I still don’t , so just imagine how I feel

Through My Mind. By Cesar Reyes

 
I stroll through hurricanes,
as I’ve conquered bigger obstacles than hurricanes see
Poetry is my blood, my soul, they cant take it from me
Keep marching , keep swinging, till life’s battles are won
Its all an eternal struggle that can never be done
Cry fire and feel pain that nobody knows
Constantly being challenged, but I guess that’s just how life goes
There’s is no limit to where my words can be heard
Courage comes naturally, to me fear is absurd
Every step, every breath, every time that I fall
I leap higher, I breath harder, more than before I stand tall
 I am reborn like a speeding bullet blasted from a gun
Nobody can stand in my way, I am the one and only one
 I have just enough strength to accomplish what god set me out to do
Don’t care for pessimists ,I don’t have time for you
The strength of a bear, freedom of an eagle, heart of a lion
I have a destiny , I wont allow anyone to be denying
Yet I was born to suffer,in order to understand and write poems to heel peoples wounds
Build my life up with care , even when catastrophe , lingers and looms
I aim high with my goals, I might as well be leaping off a tower
Yet in the face of adversity, is the only place where I can show my true power

I’m in Control . By Cesar Reyes

You don’t know me that well

You may be able to read between the lines

 But you cant read my heart or my mind

You will always know, only what I let you in to see
 
I maintain the distance between you and me

I will not be defined based on one poem or a few tears

I am a prodigy of my universe that has expanded over the years

Sometimes shit is bad, sometimes it’s good

It’s a necessity to be mad, its part of life I wouldn’t stop it even if I could

So fuck you, fuck him, and fuck her

I don’t need you to understand me;

I just needed you to know

That I’m moving at the speed of life and you’re too fucking slow

Lessons I have learned. By Cesar Reyes

 
Tears in my hands are better than blood on my wrists

You can cry for a life time but blood like happiness is in short supply

Love can be amazing, if you don’t let it blind you

Do not allow people to use and control you

Darkness will consume you if you never look for the light

Remember that you are only as good as your last step

Rainbows can only be formed after a storm

And Sooner or later we all have dues that we have to pay to move on

Life is one long roller coaster ride, you have your ups and downs

So its ok from time to time to just throw your hands in the air

and scream to get through it

Never think of yourself as lonely, only as an individual

who for a rain drop in the hurricane of life is walking down their own path

Loneliness will poison you, if you don’t have the courage to walk down your own path

Irresponsibility will distract you , unless you have the wisdom to stay focused

Love will depress you if you do not recognize your own worth

Laughter can distract you, if you learn how to control certain distractions

Tears can blind you, if you don’t find out how to take them away

 Envy will destroy you if you’re not thankful for all that you have

Life has no soundtrack . By Cesar Reyes

If we could live our lives inside of a song
 
In a five minute period our world could come together in a perfect equilibrium

I live in the real world Where life has no perfect Harmony

There is no song that plays in the background when you are sad

The screen in front of you doesn’t fade to black until you die
 
The good guy doesn’t always get the girl

Pain and struggles are a constant way of life
 
They are not something that last only a few days

Personal accomplishments and goals are not everlasting

They are just steps we build to get to the next step

There is no pause button, so enjoy your smiles but keep on stepping

There is no fast-forward so have the patience to achieve every step the right way

There is no rewind so learn from every misstep that you make

There are more questions than answers

And everything doesn’t get tied up in the end

Despite all the colors that exist,

The world is just a beautiful simple vomited complication of different shades of grey

Where my life is going. By Cesar Reyes

 
I got goals and accomplishments,
but I don’t know where my life is going
I have complaints and aggravations, I’m not supposed to be showing
I got a list of shit to do, but none of it personally matters to me
I have about a million other places I’d much rather be
I don’t even feel lost any more;
it’s more like I’m on a train that doesn’t stop
I feel like I hit the high point of my life already and this is the scary steep drop
I get so fed up sometimes that tears fall from my eyes, but I wouldn’t say that I’m crying
I may get a clean bill of health, but I know there’s a part of my soul that’s dying
I do all that I can, but it never seems like enough
I am fully aware at all times that in comparison to other people my life is not that rough
I don’t really care sometimes about anyone, and I’m just keeping it real
I do care about others most of the time and that contradiction is just how I honestly feel
I want to rebuild my image that currently looks like a mirror that’s slightly shattered
I want to make a difference in the world, or at the very least matter

Living To Die. By Cesar Reyes

One day I will not be here
From the day I was born
My countdown began
I’m not sure what I’ve accomplished
Do I dare even call me a man?
Despite the faith that I have
I don’t know what happens when my countdown ends
My image is nothing but a foggy memory to my family & friends
From the day I was born
I’ve just been living to die
I don’t know how far my echoes will travel
If someday someone will shed light on my web of lies
That each poem that I echo represents one tear
That even though I wrote of strength and triumph
I lived my life in fear
From the day I was born
I was introduced to the world as my cemetery
I write poems instead of shedding tears
Because they are something I cannot carry
My poems are dark, but they are as clear as day
When my countdown ends, to the cemetery I leave behind
My poems are what I give
Let them remember me by saying
That from the day I was born
I was dying to live

Breath. By Cesar Reyes

For me to write is to breath

To care is to give

For me to die is to surrender

To cry is to heal

For me to fall is the only way to rise

To smile is to be distracted

For me to sleep is to wander

To scream is to release

For me to bleed is to show im real

To dream is to see

For me to hold back is to show fear

To love is to fly

For me the only way to live is to believe

In Between . By Cesar Reyes

I smile too often to be depressed

I frown too much to say I'm happy

I've hurt too many people to say Im weak

I've given up so many times I cant say i'm strong

Im too paranoid to trust anybody

When I do trust people, I get betrayed

I'm too young to understand

Im too old to feel scared

Im too smart to be a drug addict

Im too stupid to recognize my own worth

I have too much to say I'm poor

I don't have enough to keep me going

I feel too much pain to say I'm dead

I feel too empty to say I'm alive

I don't have enough reason to keep on believing

But I have too much faith in my heart to ever stop

Letting Go. By Cesar Reyes

 
For every goodbye
I have to remind myself that not everyone is meant to be with you forever
So you should appreciate them, while you cross paths in this short thing we call life
 
For every goodbye
I get sad, and I feel like I’m losing something inside of me
It feels like I’m losing a part of my life that always felt familiar
 
For every goodbye
I have to let go a little part of my heart
And I pray that that person takes good care of that little part of me, wherever life takes them
 
For every goodbye
I take a minute to sit down and reminisce
And I am reminded of all the reasons I am going to miss that person
 
For every goodbye
I wonder if Ill ever see that person again
And if I should run into them many years from now, will they greet me as a friend, or walk past me like a stranger
 
 
 

Fallen Dream. By Cesar Reyes

I close my eyes and dream
That I have a different life
That I live in a cloud
That I don’t remember what tears are for
 
I close my eyes and dream
That I can breathe peacefully on a never before seen beach
That I live in an ocean with underwater rainbows
That I can jump out of the water when I get tired and fly away anywhere
 
I close my eyes and dream
That pain has nothing to do with love
That happiness won’t always be a pursuit,
That it is an actual destination
 
I close my eyes and dream
That I am swimming inside a single drop of rain
That that rain drop falls inside a rose
That that rose is given to the girl of my dreams

I still believe. By Cesar Reyes Torres

When all about me, I was surrounded by pain and sadness
God laid out a safe path for me to walk on
When I strode away from that path
God forgave me and let me come back, and continue the journey he laid out for me

When I felt like I had no way out of the prison I had put my life in
God opened the door and set me free
When I failed to find a reason to continue moving forward
God gave me a purpose

When I was tempted by distractions
God kept me resolute and strong
When I stumbled to the ground and felt that I couldn’t move past mountains of despair
God picked me up, he moved those mountains, and he let me proceed

When I thought I had done all that I could do
God gave me the hope to say to myself, do a little bit more
When I grew tired and weak from the journey
God gave me the strength to keep going and show others that I still believe

One step forward. By Cesar Reyes

I was just closing in on my destination

And for a split second I lost my concentration

I stumbled and fell

And nobody helped

Today my destination seems farther

I try my best , but as I get older, life get harder

I cant go back because I don't know where my journey originated

Whenever I try to fix things, they get more complicated

One step forward and never look back

Every time I fall and get up I wonder where my friends are at

Im the friend who nobody wanted, but who they occasionally needed

The one everyone forgot about, but who came in handy when life got heated

People around me live life faster

But I have found that not taking things step by step is a formula for disaster

Lately i've enjoyed just walking and deep breathing

Im proud of being able to stand on my own two feet, and not having to be
Constantly pleading

I keep on walking and I often wonder where Im at

I just keep telling myself,take one step forward, and never look back

Poor People. By Cesar Reyes

Poor is the person who thinks that they will take all their wealth beyond the mortal soul that god has given them

Poor is the person who values the material that is given, over the soulful reward that is earned

Poor is the person who only sees with their eyes and not with their heart

Poor is the person who cares more for themselves than they do for others

Poor is the person who invest all their love into vanity

Poor is the person who has nothing to look forward to when they come home

Poor is the person who believes that love has anything to do with money

Poor is the person who gambles their soul in the belief that there is no god

Poor is the person who takes joy in the misery of others

Poor is the person who succeeds by making others fail

Poor is the person who can help others but chooses not to

Poor is the person who has no friends to confide in

Poor is the person who believes all of their evil deeds have no consequence   

Poor is the person who does the good lords work only because they expect a reward in return

Tired. By Cesar Reyes

I got tired of caring about people like you who didn’t give a fuck about me
They make you devalue your worth,
and your good qualities are sides of you they’ll never appreciate or even see
 
I got tired of giving and giving and not even being acknowledged for the things I did everyday
I wasn’t looking for praise, but a simple thank you would have gone a long way
 
I got tired of waiting for you to get your life straight
I don’t need your constant bullshit around me, or the drama you always seem to create
 
I got tired of being your backup, and being treated like something that got stuck to your shoe
The person you only called, or texted when you had nothing to do
 
I got tired of thinking of a reason for why I still keep you around
I thought long and hard, but that reason was one that I never found
 
I got tired of trying to change into the kind of person you could see in a different light
So take care, god bless you, and have a nice life
 

Life is good. By Cesar Reyes

I can no longer cry

I am finally able to peacefully sleep

I wish to live and not die

The smile on my face is one that I think I might keep

I've said it before but I believe it more now

Tomorrow did turn out to be a brighter day

I am able to laugh a lot more, I vanished away all my frowns

And everything turned out to be okay

I have forgotten the taste of tears

My back no longer bears the weight of a thousand boulders

I have worked hard for this day over the years

And I know feel angels behind me, with their hands on my shoulders

I know moments like these never last

That a bright sunset is only beautiful untill the darkness of the night

But I am no longer tormented by my past

And all darkness will fall, when again comes the light

Sometimes I cry. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes I cry and there is not enough optimism in the world to help pick me up off the ground

I set out to go find myself , instead I ended up lost and not found
Warm tears roll down my cheeks but i can feel them in my heart, and in my heart there stone cold

Each one represents one fucked up story that will never get told

The emptiness sits inside me , like blank shelves that use to hold something meaningful

I work hard everyday , but happiness for me isn't achievable

I have a fake smile and a fake voice, they are the essential masks that I wear

But god knows they don't belong to me, to me they're just a disguise I have there

Catastrophe follows me, and making mistakes is the only thing I seem to be good at

I gave my soul to a girl and she traded it in for a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of jack

I have a place to sleep at night , but I have no home

People ask to many fucken questions, thats why id rather live my life alone

Im trying to forget the shit I put up with every fucken day

Silence is my only friend, because it never has a damn word to say

Everyday I give up on one dream, and at night I sometimes hope god can take me peacefully in my sleep

Maybe he can make me a spirit so I can travel with the wind and never again weep

I keep my head down and blend into crowds, so people who think they know me cant see me

People enjoy my poetry, but wouldn't want to be me

If you think im being over dramatic, you can read it all in my eyes

And when you look deep  enough you'll say to yourself," I understand why he sometimes cries" 

Dreaming. By Cesar Reyes

I float in the middle of the sky at sunset
I make love to the girl of my dreams in the middle of a cloud
In the middle of a kiss we fall through the cloud
Still in that same kiss,
We open our eyes underneath the middle of an unseen ocean
We look in each others eyes, and we see eternity
The ocean falls and disappears around us
I embrace her with my arms around her
Two souls inside one heart
We stare at a still sunset that never falls
We share one last hug
Then we share one last smile that lasts forever

Fighting. By Cesar Reyes

Please shed light on a path that will allow me to walk away from those who wish me harm

Please give me the strength to defend myself if I cannot find the light

Please give me the courage to not be scared

Please don’t let me cry

Please no pain

Please don’t let me fall

Please help me get back up if I should fall

Please erase the hate and anger I may feel inside of me towards my enemies

Please help me and my enemies find the common ground so that we can embrace each other as brothers

What really matters. By Cesar Reyes

Tear drops and closed caskets

Stuff crust pizza and dancing with the stars

The contradictions that exist in the world

Make me question this life of ours

Rape Victims and crack babies

Paris Hilton and Jon and Kate plus eight

I feel bad for all of their existences

Its amazing the horrors society tends to create

Racism and Genocide

Brangelina and Microwaveable food

I want the world to pay attention

But I guess to interrupt their daily lives would be rude

Global Warming and pedophile priests

American Idol and Donald Trump

When will the world pay attention to the fact

That were quickly going to be living inside a dump

Hope. By Cesar Reyes

After all the pain
and all the tears
After the emotional blizzards
I lived through for 25 years

All I have is hope

After all the broken hearts
and all the shattered dreams
After being screwed over a few times
And finding out that people aren’t what they seem

All I have is hope

After years of living
And mountains of unanswered prayers
After years of searching
And finding out that nobody out there cares

All I have is hope

After hoping for the best
And living through the worst
After my soul withers away
I have come to believe that my life is cursed

But all I have is hope

Peace of Mind. By Cesar Reyes

I breath comfortably in silence

My life long struggle is to simply just get through crowds

My poems try to raise awareness like sirens

And doing so, gives me strength and it makes me proud

A peaceful soul is the only company i'd like to keep

I tend not to trust the kindness of strangers

My poems are the method I use to weep

Id like a mind of only peace, with no worries of any dangers

I see the beauty of the world we are destroying

Someday the last rose will die

Peoples ignorance is both scary and annoying

I wonder what it would look like if the planet cried

Im searching for an existence to call my own

It is a life I have yet to find

And even if in searching I may be alone

ill stop at nothing to have peace of mind

Lost in the music. By Cesar Reyes

I can even feel it in my veins
It feels so powerful, and soothing,
It penetrates me and wipes away all my pains
Its like each time I hit a key, it does something inside of me
The music takes me
Somewhere else
A different world
An entire different
Unknown Dimension
That I can only show
With this piano
And it is something
I could never speak
Or even mention
The only way for you
to truly know
The only way for me
To be able to describe
Is to let you feel the vibe
You need to take
A moment and just
Close your eyes
Let the music pierce
Your soul and hypnotize
Your senses
                            And when you least expect it
                 You’ll suddenly be where I currently am
          You will feel like some sort of liberated spirit
         Living in a long lost psychedelic foreign land
           But when the music stops and you have to
             Come back home and open your eyes
               You’ll have to go back to your reality
                      Into what now seems like boring,
                                     Mundane lies

Just because i love you. By Cesar Reyes

 
Just because I love you
doesn’t mean I’m a let you treat me like shit
And it is because I do love you ,
That I give a fuck who your talking with
Just because I love you
 doesn’t mean I’m a accept you for the person I have in front of me
And it is because I do love you
that I want you to become all I know you can be
Just because I love you
doesn’t mean I’m a agree wichu even when your acting absurd
And it is because I do love you
That I hope from time to time you have the strength to question my words
 Just because I love you
 doesn’t mean I don’t expect us to ever grow apart
 And it is because I do love you
That even if were separated , ill always keep you in my hart
 Just because I love you
doesn’t mean I’m a tell you every day
And it is because I do love you
That I’d rather show you , and not necessarily I love you always say
Just because I love you
doesn’t mean I’m never going to get mad
And it is because I do love you
That I have the virtue to forgive you because of the bond that you and me have
 Just because I love you
doesn’t mean you will always have me here
And it is because I do love you
That if you ever miss me , just close your eyes
and remember me and you’ll have me near

Poets. By Cesar Reyes

We poets live in a world of metaphors and everlasting thoughts

We love truely but only once in our lives, but it is pure

And we give all of our strength and soul to it

We carry the million pieces of our broken hearts

In the eternal oceans that dance on the rim of our eyes

We walk through the clouds and expose mirages for who they truely are

We are remembered only by our poems that forever echo

through the sands of the universes hour glass

Wed walk the deserts of moses past

Only so that our tears can quickly dry against our skin

We are carried by howling winds through life, and together like lions we roar

And in the face of fear and terror , we whisper, we are not afraid

We exist only in solitude, as is the only place to find internal peace

We are lulled to sleep by the scents of rose gardens and fields of wild carnations

We kiss the stars and hug the moon

We read poems to angels in our day dreams

We smile underwater and in the sound of silence we kneel and pray

We grab flower petals by the fist full

And stand still as they gently float away off our han

We are poets and as long as our words are read

Past Milleniums and civilizations we poets is all that will remain

My Life. By Cesar Reyes

Whisper poems to the wind
Find myself and attempt to sin
I never cry , but tears still fall
I’ve never won , but I still stand tall
I walk in solitude , through a roaring crowd
too much pride, but I cant say I’m proud
I have trouble sleeping, but I often day dream
Love is beautiful , but its not what it seems
I’m a bum , people pretend they don’t see me
People enjoy my poems , but wouldn’t want to be me
I’m a poet, I’m a rebel , I’m a renegade
My words cut deep, sharper than any blade
I walk a fine line between genius and insanity
don’t get many compliments, I reject all vanity
I sit by the beach and imagine the shore going in reverse
Spent my life running, only to find out loneliness is a curse
Words that I speak, are not wasted and are all worth speaking
I spend my life searching for what I should truly be seeking

If i had my way. By Cesar Reyes

Id travel across the country on a truck ,
quit my job and just wouldn’t give a fuck
I'd write my poetry and drink my wine
Party all night and not give a shit about time
Id paint everyday
And day dream the whole way
Id leave footprints on the ocean wet sand
Learn to play the guitar, and start a band
Id sell oranges by the side of the road
Drink beer , watch TV and see the economy implode
 Stay up all night , watch the stars fade
Go to open mic , and read poems I made
 Go to the mountains and start a snow fight
 Wake up on some beach and continue to write
Sell my truck , and buy a Harley Davidson bike
Keep traveling and marry a woman I like
Id swim down the river, and the climb up a tree
Die of old age , get reincarnated and continue my living spree

Fall Apart. By Cesar Reyes

We see ourselves as eternal statues

Strong and full of mystique

But we are as fragile as clouds

Slowly disappearing with time

Appearing massive and eternal

But vulnerable inside

Like the clouds, we live life at our own pace

And although things get complicated

Life still has a subtle grace

As strong as we may be, our strength and weakness is our heart

There's a never ending list of things that can

make us fall apart

Direction. By Cesar Reyes

I suddenly find my life without any direction
I cant remember how I got here
I cant see where I’m going

My thoughts have no words
My feelings cannot be trusted

Life is like driving through fog
By the time you see what it is that’s
Really in front of you, its too late

All my mistakes are different
All my mistakes are the same

We all spend our lives learning from past errors

Those with no regrets, never admit to mistakes
Mistakes are doors that you should not have opened

Sometimes it is necessary to be lost for a while,
So you can figure out where your going

A Lonely Penny. By Cesar Reyes

In your moment of need

Who was really there

Who really keeps you from falling

Who takes the time from there schedule

Who goes out of there way

Im like a penny on the ground

No matter how bright I try to shine

Im not worth much to a lot of people

A penny is the only thing

You cant change

It is what it is, you cant make

Any more cents from it

People can always live without a penny

This is my life, this is my net worth

A lonely penny

I am stronger. By Cesar Reyes.

I’m thankful for having met you

I’m sorry if I let you down

I fell asleep to the very thought of you

When I was lost you turned my life around

You were all my strength, all my might

Woke up to you in the morning

Thought of you in the afternoons

I dreamt of you at night

You showed me what I could do

With the strength you gave my heart

A timeline of arguments , laughs , and tears.

Culminating with me and you apart

Seeing you smile has been my greatest joy

I didn’t mind being your puppet

Except you treated me like a worthless toy

Despite it all, good or bad , the memories are all mine,

I will never forget you ,i will remember you for all time

It's not easy. By Cesar Reyes

We are the sum of all the choices we make
Tomorrows beginning will always depend on today’s last steps that we take
 
It’s not easy to find the right path
It’s like we have all the right numbers but we can’t add up the math
 
Most people will never know the story behind the path you had to take
Most people will never know the lifelong sacrifices you constantly have to make
 
As time passes, we often wonder how we got here
It doesn’t feel like we made the choice, but more like we just suddenly appeared
 
Days seem shorter, as time passes by
It would seem that for every second you pause, the world moves on in the blink of an eye
 
 

Backwards Opposite. By Cesar Reyes

Some people dare to dream
But I have a refusal to fail
Some people have the courage to speak up
I have the strength to stay silent
Some people look for love
I am of the opinion that love will find me
Some people forgive and forget
I ignore and move on
Some people lack self confidence
I lack arrogance
Some people feel lost in their lives
But I just feel like I’m patiently trying to find my way
Some people feel there painfully suffering from depression
I happily smile and call their pain “Life”
 
 

Pressure. By Cesar Reyes

So much pressure, so much to do
I’m realizing that previous realities didn’t turn out to be true
So much to learn, so little time
So many things I have to do in this short life of mine
I’m living day to day, while planning for tomorrow
I feel like going door to door and asking if they have some strength that I can borrow
I have nothing left, but i still keep on going
I sound pessimistic, but I still have hope even if it’s something I’m not showing
I often feel lost, but life does not have a map
People tend to have ulterior motives, and there life advice often turns out to be a trap
I carry so much pressure that people cant see
I have come to realize that I am a person that people admire, but who never want to be

Better Left Unsaid. By Cesar Reyes

 
I’m not gonna say, you look like an angel
Because I’ve never seen one, and because no one’s perfect, and none of us are angels
But I can honestly tell you that besides heaven I can’t think of any other place that you might have come from
 
I’m not gonna say, you look beautiful
Because everyone says that to everybody, and you deserve more than that
But I can honestly tell you that your beauty is the equivalent of a sunset, you almost don’t want to blink so that you don’t miss a second of it, until its gone. And when its gone you wait patiently for the sunrise
 
I’m not gonna say, your eyes are like the stars
Because stars are essentially just shiny dots in the sky
But I can honestly tell you that it would probably be worth it a thousand times over to get lost in your eyes than get lost amongst the stars
 
I’m not gonna say you have a nice smile
Because I wouldn’t feel right saying it, unless I knew which smile was genuine and which one was a picture pose
But I can honestly tell you that you genuinely smile when I’ve seen you with your son
 
I’m not gonna say you have a great personality
Because I don’t really know you as well as I wish I did
But I can honestly tell you that the very little that I did get to know, was an honor, privilege, & pleasur

Easy Girl. By Cesar Reyes

               

A guy could very easily fall in love with you
But I would feel scared to fall for you, because I’m pretty sure my heart is the one that would get broken
so I promised myself that I wouldn’t
 
A guy could easily not care about the rest of the world, when they are with you
That’s why I try to stay far away from you,
 Because you would be all I cared about
 
A guy could easily want to be with you as much as possible
This is why I try not to talk to you, because I would miss you
And it would drive me crazy not knowing when I would see you again
 
A guy could easily want to promise you everything you’re heart desired
But I know that I could not deliver all of those things to you
That’s why I painfully can’t promise you anything
 
A guy could easily meet you only once, for a brief second and never forget you until their dying day
That is how I know I will never forget you
And you will stay with me, until I’m old and grey

In your eyes. By Cesar Reyes

In your eyes I can fall asleep

In your eyes is where I can truly rest

In your eyes, it is easier to dream

In your eyes is where I can really see you

In your eyes anything is possible

In your eyes I can disappear

In your eyes you have my trust

In your eyes I smile

In your eyes I am careless

In your eyes I can forget about where I am

In your eyes I seem happier

In your eyes I don’t see perfection, but I do see truth

 

 

A dead rose. By Cesar Reyes

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that the touch of your warm hands will make it come back to life

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you might smile at it, and in your smile the rose might find new hope even after it's petals have lost their beauty and lust.

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you might hug it, and while it's being hugged , it feels like it's in heaven

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that you keep it and the rose feels like it's your angel

I want to give you this dead rose, in hopes that might always know, that as long as it's around you , a dead rose will always feel alive.

Parte de mi. By Cesar Reyes

Te considero parte de mi Alma
Te considero parte de mi corazon
Te considero parte de mi Vida
Te considero parte de mi inspirasion
Te considero en todas mis orasiones
Te considero la mas noble amistad
Te considero por las sonrisas que me pones
Te considero porque tu Siempre me dises la Verdad
Te considero parte de mis suenos
Te considero parte de mis pensamientos
Te considero por todos Los momentos tan pequenos
Te considero porque aunque en la Vida nos perdemos, Siempre hayamos manera que nos encontremos.

Sin Miedo. By Cesar Reyes

Si yo le temiera al mar
Y tu fueras una sirena
Yo me converteria en un marinero

Si yo le temiera a lo alto del cielo
Y tu fueras una nube
Yo aprenderia a volar un avion

Si yo le temiera a lo escuro de la noche
Y tu fueras una estrella
Yo me converteria en un astronauta

Si yo le temiera a la lumbre
Y tu estubieras un un edificio con fuego
Yo me converteria en un bombero

Si yo le temiera a lo frio
Y tu fueras una mujer de nieve
Yo me converteria en un indio eskimo

Si yo le temiera a la felizidad
Y tu le temieras a la tristesa
Yo me converteria en tu propio payaso

I wanted to die. By Cesar Reyes

As I lay on a million blades of grass
Blanketed by the icy wind in the dead of night
Piercing and taunting me
I slowly whispered to myself that I wanted to die
And the more that I told myself that
I kept getting reasons to live
I kept trying to figure out how emptiness can hurt
How can not feeling anything inside of you feel painful
My eyes feel drowsy and tired
But I can't seem to sleep
Dangerous thoughts, Streaks of tears
My arms stretched out like I wanted to fly
But instead I just fell to the ground
And as I lay there alone
With only paralyzing pain to keep me company
And even though death held a door open just for me
I never felt so alive

Climbing. By Cesar Reyes

Everyday i open my eyes

I convince myself its a new start

But with each passing day , I grow tired of

always starting at the beginning

I soon see that milestones are only a fraction

of the growing mountain, to conquer lifes battles

Always climbing and never being able to say im done

You have to always climb, because the moment you dont

is the moment you fall

My Chick friend. By Cesar Reyes

I want to tell my chick friend
 That ill always be with you until the end
That I give to you my heart and my soul
 And that making you happy is my life’s only goal
I promise to be your tissue to wipe all your tears
I promise to be your sword to destroy all your fears
I want to be the shoulder you lean on when you feel weak
I want to be the ear you confide in with all the secrets you keep
Drink coffee together at sunrise, and a beer at the sunset
Anything’s possible with us , we could jump in the ocean and not come out wet
We have the ability to some how just get lost in time
I don’t know how I found you, but I thank god your mine
I don’t care what happened at the beginning, but I fear someday our friendship could end
These are just a few things
I want to tell my chick friend

In the mirror. By Cesar Reyes

You are the one I respect
You are the one I admire
I can read your soul
I am fueled by your fire

It’s a shame I admire you
For your inability to feel pain
Its like your oblivious to the world
You have ice in your veins

I know what you are capable of
And where your weaknesses lie
I lived through your nightmares
But don’t have the strength to see you cry

So much you will never know
For you at night I prey to Christ
If you only knew my adulation for you
And how much I’ve sacrificed

Performing Artist. By Cesar Reyes

 
I sit in this coffee shop with real artists, poets and musicians
Most of them breath and dream creations from here to infinity
Next to them I have no vision , I have no ability
There art is bold and controversial
My creations seem generic and commercial
Half of them look like tweekers and escaped cons
I was confident when I came up here
But now all that is gone
I’m too responsible to be a poet
My heart is too soft, my strength just isn’t enough
Life’s been too easy on me,
I haven’t suffered or had it rough
I Cant be a musician Cuz I have no rhythmic flow
I got have good ideas
But they have no nowhere to go
I've never found out if I had artistic expression
Im not an artist , but art is still my obsession
Art is like a drug, to create it is to take a hit or make an injection
It all echoes with out timelines, you cant make a projection 
Art is vague but it is delivered with precision
But at the end , it gives enough clarity to help guide decisions

I don't know anymore. By Cesar Reyes

I Don't Know Anymore

I see you in front of me
But it like your a million miles away
I hear you
But it's like I'm listening to my past
I'm trying to talk to you
But I don't get the feeling my words are resonating
I know who u are
But I get this feeling like I'm talking to a stranger
I know I still care about you
But I have to remember why
I could rip a picture of you and me apart
But when I try to put it back together, it doesn't seem the same

I met you.By Cesar Reyes

I met you

12 billion years ago the universe the universe exploded into stardust
And 12 billion years later I met you
There is 27 thousand students at this college
But out of 27 thousand I met you
People will normally see 800 to 900 people a day
But out of those 800 to 900 i met you
The human mind can produce 70,000 thoughts per day
But out of those 70,000 the most beautiful one I have is the one of you
The brain can hold up to 3 million hours of information
But out of all those 3 million hours, I only care about the moment when i met you

Pass me by. By Cesar Reyes

Pass me by

I blinked for a second and life passed me by

Life went by so fast I didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye

I blinked for a second I suddenly don’t know where I am

I feel like a kid in the body of a grown man

I blinked for a second and suddenly I’m surrounded by strangers and no friends

I never got a chance to say I was sorry and try to make amends

I blinked for a second and suddenly everyone was gone

I always thought I’d have enough time but I guess I was wrong

She's Gone. By Cesar Reyes

 
I always thought me and her would someday cross paths again
But instead she moved on,
And I’m still here wondering where that part of my life has been
 
I always thought we would be able to work through any problems that we had
But instead she walked down her own path
And I’m still here wondering how a good relationship went bad
 
I always thought our bond was too strong to shatter
But instead she made me into a distant memory
And I’m still here realizing how little I actually mattered
 
I always thought me and her had irreplaceable memories
But instead she constantly smiles and laughs without me
And I’m still here wondering if she considers me a friend or an enemy
 
I always thought that me and her were destined to go through life together
But instead I was wrong
And I’m still here wondering, how one day, one bad argument turned into forever

Shine. By Cesar Reyes

Shine

You shine like a rising sun

You stand out like a tigers eyes

You make the world a million times more fun

You give the kind of smiles that money never buys

You shine like a diamond ring

You stand out like a velvet rose

You shine like the light that only a star can give

You stand out like the truth amongst lies that have been exposed

You shine like a blazing fire

You standout like the frosting on a cake

Your the type of woman, other girls can admire

Your like a dream heaven made and I hope I never wake

Unsheltered Soul. By Cesar Reyes

I feel that as I was growing up I was too exposed
to life’s harsh realities
 
And over the years it was up to me to learn how to
Heal myself from those emotional brutalities
 
Even though at times I may sound remorseful
I do believe all of those experiences made me stronger
 
I learned that It is only through pain and sacrifice
That you can say you struggled but in the end conquered
 
I have to admit that the most helpful thing in life
Was feeling lost, like my life had no obvious direction
 
It was helpful to me because I was able to figure out my life
And I gained much needed wisdom and eternal comprehension.
 
I found out the hard way, that you can’t trust just anyone
And for the purposes of value all relationships must be measured
 
There are people that are not worth the time
Regardless, if they bring you any form of pleasure
 
I feel like I was born with the innocent smile of a child
But that smile is one that life stole
 
Today I feel like a free spirit
Even though I have grown up an unsheltered soul
 

Things that I've done. By Cesar Reyes

At times I want to make changes on things that ive done

But even though life’s not perfect

As far as past regrets go, I have none

But going forward, I am trying to work a lot harder

Im trying to be closer to god

And as far as important life decisions go, I just have to be smarter

I have to start to open my eyes and really begin to see

That every day has to mean something

If I truly want to be the wise person I want to be

The only decision left is whether or not my life is a purposeful one

Because if it is

Then I have to always be proud of the things that ive done

Small Life Lessons. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes you have to look through tears to be able to see clear

There will be times in life where in order to find courage, you have to accept fear

More than once in life, you will have to start all over again

But you will progress faster if you remember the lessons from the situations life put you in

Emptiness will unfortunately become familiar, and there is many ways to fill that space

Have faith in Christ , and in return he will fill your life with his divine grace

At times you will feel lost, and all your options will all seem the same

Take time with whatever decision you make, take life seriously and remember that your lifes not a game

Make sure you always leave room for at least one good deed for the day

To do so will leave your life blessed and will those who doubt your intentions, with nothing to say

Walk with pride and dignity in every step the you make

We only get one shot at life, so make sure your always fortunate for each breath that you take

The Next New Day. By Cesar Reyes

It feels like a momentary eternity

The disappearing darkness that starts the day

I looked up at the heavens with uncertainty

Its still to early for me to find my way

I feel the cold wind that never seems to be able to find itself sleeping

It must be what always keeps the birds awake

I am careful not to step on the drenched grass that looks like its been weeping

But then I turn to watch the new day and the remaining life of the old one that it takes away

As I walk through the changing shadows I am carefully suspicious

But all the same I still stop and I quickly kneel so I can pray

The world out there may not be so friendly; it might be cruel and vicious

So please god grant me the will to make it to see the next new day

I'm still alive. By Cesar Reyes

I’m still alive

When it becomes an option to just roll over and die

And you stay up at night and feel the tears in your eyes

And you feel absolutely nothing inside

But for the sake of others, it’s something you try to hide

And you sit and wonder if anyone else is going through shit in their lives

Trying to get past peoples bullshit and lies

Constantly comparing you, and why can’t you be like this?, why can’t you be like that?

It’s unbearable to contemplate how your mind can take so much crap

You become like a zombie who keeps on living but whose vital signs are essentially flat

And its moments like those you wonder where your true friends are at

It’s like it never goes away, and you wake up with tears because you even cry when you dream
 
You become a victim of circumstance, and you’re a slave to routine
 
But nothing is ever as bad as it seems
 
Somewhere out there, there are people who have seen what you’ve seen
 
And they came back and survived
 
They conquered and strived
 
In the face of personal collapse and in the shadow of death to the next day they still arrived
 
When life gave them its worst they had the strength to scream out and say
“I’m still alive"

Backstabbed (artwork). By Cesar Reyes

Until we meet again. By Cesar Reyes

I’m not sure how we got so far apart
And now neither of us can think of one word to say
I guess I expected it to end up like this from the start
Still close in distance, yet it feels like you’re so far way

Now it even feels awkward when I say hello
Whatever we were is just waiting to be buried
I think on many levels we were both trying to let go
Down the line at some point, I use to picture us getting married

I have no animosity towards you
Even though we are basically strangers now,
you can hold on to my respect
It’s probably best that I disappear from you
And I hope this compromise is one that you won’t reject

I’m basically asking you to forget what we became
And only remember the innocent place we both started in
Maybe in the future things can change
So let’s just say goodbye for now until we meet again

Crossroads. By Cesar Reyes

Crossroads


In the absence of absolute certainty

When doubt circles your heart
like a flock of vultures

In the face of pessimism and adversity

When your lack of strength
almost feels like torture

It is possible to look up at an empty sky and find hope

It’s like your heart knows something, without really knowing

It gives you the right words
with which you can cope

And gives you a purpose in life
to keep on going

When you feel a void
that’s so consuming

Like a lack of warmth
that’s made your life ice cold

When sunshine fades behind dark clouds and you feel a storm looming

And you feel caught up in a free fall with nothing solid around you can hold

As hopeless as it may seem

It is possible to accept those circumstances

Across the timeline of your life, most problems only last as long as a bad dream

Then you move on to see where the next roulette ball bounces

More Often. By Cesar Reyes

I wish I saw you more often than our present rate of communication

But I hope you know that every second I spend with you is of the most sincere appreciation

If it was up to me I would greet you every day with a friendly hug, just so you didn’t forget I’m here

It seems like I never see you that much, until out of nowhere we both suddenly appear

I hope you don’t just see me as a casual acquaintance, because I happen to consider you a good friend

I guess in the back of my mind I fear that you’ll get tired of me if I saw you more than just now and then

I underestimated the power of a smile, until you gave me a reason to smile for

I underestimated the power of a frown, until you showed how sadness was something I could ignore

I can see how some people will never understand the friendship a man and woman can share

But until they have a friend like you, as far there opinion goes I don’t really care

I hope after you read this it’s followed by a smile

And that hopefully the next time I see you I won’t be that long of a while

Why I write. By Cesar Reyes

I often read and I often write

To see if there others out there
Who fight the same battles I fight

I often think and get lost in thought

Is this pain unique?
Or is this something that happens to people a lot

I often hope and I often prey

For a cure or vaccine
To these things that I deal with every day

I often walk through crowds
And see something common in our faces

Is this something we go through sometimes?
Or is this something we all must deal with on a daily basis

I often lack courage but only sometimes get scared

If I disappear tomorrow I just want to know
That there was someone out there
Who could relate or at the very least cared

Silent Thoughts. By Cesar Reyes

Silent Thoughts

I walk alone down a broken alley
I fall asleep in the fields of a lonely valley

I cry for all those who suffer and I pray for them
I’m nothing now, I’m not what I was then

I have no strength, I have no voice
I have no friends, I have no choice

I carry a broken heart I don’t know how to mend
I wrote a million poems I don’t know who to send

I have a million tears I don’t know how I got
I don’t bleed but inside I really hurt a lot

To be nothing is to have nothing
So that what I am
More than a boy, but far less than a man

I’m cautious about being happy
Because the higher I go
The harder I will fall
here is no light at the end of the tunnel
just a dark brick wall

I want to live underwater where you cannot cry
Be part of the eternal ocean live forever and never die

I want to spend my life chasing sunsets
just before they go down
Just me, and nature with peace and tranquility all around

Lost Dream (artwork) By. Cesar Reyes

When I was a little boy. By Cesar Reyes

When I was a little boy
I smiled and ran on the sand
Now I worry and stand in line

When I was a little boy
I played and drew pictures on my hand
Now I have to make sure I pay my bills on time

When I was a little boy
I played with any girl on the monkey bars 
Now I worry that women are just after my money

When I was a little boy
I had a set of little toy cars,
Now when I play with them people look at me funny

When I was a little boy
I hugged my mom every chance I had
Now I’d rather everyone just left me alone

When I was a little boy
I was always smiling I was never sad
Now I don’t even come home

When I was a little boy
I was always short and I was always looking up
Now I reminisce and remember my past days of fun

When I was a little boy
I could not wait to grow up
Now I wish that I was still that young

To be a Man. By Cesar Reyes

To be a man

To be a man is to not have to depend on others for your own achievements

And be able to except a helping hand

To have self confidence, but not be arrogant

And to know the difference between the two

To ignore inner turmoil, grasp inner peace

And always strive for over all tranquility

To never fear love, but not confuse it with lust

And know that the two are as different as tears and rain

To have faith but not be ruled by farfetched dreams

And know when your being guided and when your being misled

To brush off insults, but also never make yourself an easy target for them

And be strong enough to never allow words to cut though you

To have pride , but admit when your wrong

And be able to live with and learn from your mistakes

To die for your honor , but no be afraid to be a bigger man

And know when its ok to just walk away

To know your boundaries, but know when you must cross them

And be aware of the consequences for your crossing them

To strive to be happy, but never allow happiness to distract you from the problems at hand

And know that a true man can never live worry free

To be able to swim through the vast mud’s of peer pressure

And be able to walk out without a stain

To have the strength to fight for what you believe in, and give beyond 100%


And know in your heart that as long as you do that you can never really fail.

Until then....by Cesar Reyes

Until Then

When the sky rains rose petals
And the angels and spirits whisper your name

When the lions walk across oceans
And the sick children finally feel no more pain

When the poor and the hungry are swimming in wealth
And there are no tears left to fall

When the ice dances on the sun
And the ants stampede and stand tall

When the last hear is broken
And the oceans stand still

When the mute and deaf have spoken
And there are finally no prisons to fill

When the last bullet has been shot
And the last wave has washed up on the shore

When the last rain drop has fallen
And there is finally no soldiers left to fight all the wars

When all of my strength is gone and my knees hit the floor

Then I will finally be over you and love you no more

Floating Thoughts by Cesar Reyes

Floating Thoughts

Alone in this world trying to resist conformity
Betrayed and imprisoned by lifelong loyalties
Struggling to be an individual
And still maintain all my normality
Healing from past relationships
That were emotional fatalities
Fresh tears and cold bears
are the formula for destruction
Always tempted but never giving in to evil seduction
All this bullshit gives me an empty feeling deep inside
I try to not show it,
but sometimes is something I just cant hide
And I struggle with this,
Even when I think I cant deal with it anymore
I feel like im being judged
1 point for personality
And 10 million for décor
Most people will never see past
whats in front of their own two eyes
Most outer beauty is an illusion in disguise

Love is.....by Cesar Reyes

Love is…..

Love is this , love is that
Love is bliss, love is pain
Love is sunshine, love is rain
Love is smiles, love is tears
Love is courage, love is fear
Love is worth living for, love is worth dying for
Love is worth staying for
Love is worth traveling more
Love is what makes worries scatter
If you ever find love, then nothing else matters

A Mother and her Son. By Cesar Reyes

A Mother and her son

Certain lessons a man can’t teach you, but a woman can
And it is because of this that a son who can only rely on his mother
will grow to be a true man

Certain things are harder for a son to talk to his mother about
All a mother can do is tell her son she loves him,
even when communication is clogged with doubt

Certain hugs, a mother saves only for her son
A mother plays a big part of how far a man can go
and what kind of man he can become

Certain tears only a mother can wipe away
And even if his friends turn their back on him,
his mothers love, he can always count on everyday

Certain moments in their lives will not be easy ones
But together there will never be loneliness for
a mother and her son

Imperfect Rose by Cesar Reyes

Imperfect rose

You always come off as flawless, despite any imperfections in your life that only you can see

Despite any and all faults, your still the female most women would dream to be

You've always been the light that brightened up every room

You've always kept your sense of humor even when disaster lingered and loomed

You always come off as seemingly untouchable and strong

Anybody who thinks they can limit you, would in my opinion, soon be proven wrong.

You've always been the gift your friends are thankful to have

You've always been the kind of woman most men can only dream they had

You've always kept it real with everyone, there's nothing two faced about you that can be exposed.

You may not be perfect, but I think everyone who knows you will always see you as an imperfect rose

Some People. By Cesar Reyes

Some People

Some people just love to see you fail
As this is the only way in which they feel they can succeed
 
Some people just love to see you smile
These are the kind of people you should cherish and keep around you
 
Some people will never allow you do be at peace
Misery loves company, and they want to share that misery with you
 
Some people will stand by you, regardless of all circumstances  
You should remember these people not only in the bad times, but the good times as well
 
Some people will want to use you for anything and everything they can get out of you
These people are not your friends; they are leeches that will leave you when they’ve used you all up
 
Some people would literally be dead if they didn’t have you in their life
Although these people are vulnerable, you should help them if and when you can
 
Some people will smile in your face and talk about you behind your back
You can keep these people around you, but remember that they have the face of a friend and an enemy
 
Some people will always remember you, even after many years
This should just serve as a reminder of how special you truly are
 
Some people will never appreciate you regardless of how much you do for them
These are not relationships worth keeping, and you must learn to let go
 
Some people will consider you the highlight of their day
These are the people that should be the highlight of your day

All I got. by Cesar Reyes

All I Got

I have painful memories inside
I have a shortage of blood, replaced by tears that are waiting their turn
I have so many emotions I’m trying to hide
I feel like I’m stuck in a house, and helplessly watching it burn
 
My only hope in life is that everything will be easier when I’m older
Even though I feel like I’m in a burning house, as time passes my heart gets colder
 
I have so many problems,
But I haven’t got a clue
I have no direction to go to solve them
I lie to myself so much, eventually it all feels true
 
I feel lost with a purpose I haven’t found
At times Ive felt like a failure, but I still prey that I'm victory bound
 
 

You are not alone out there by Cesar Reyes

You are not alone out there

There are others who have fought the same battles you have
There are others who wipe away tears similar to the ones that you had
There are others who feel just as lonely as you are
There are others who wonder not only how, but for what reason has life brought them this far
There are others who struggle everyday to get out of bed
There are others who regret certain things that they’ve said
There are others who feel like they don’t belong anywhere and they’re just in the way
There are others who do not feel loved, and have no one to share the small miracles of the day
There are others who struggle to smile
There are others who have been waiting there lives to change for a while
There are others who constantly feel like just giving up
There are others who at times just want to be left alone, and wish the world would just shut up
There are others who do good things but who still have bad things happen to them
There are others who have lost everything and have to start all over again

He is Real by Cesar Reyes

He is real

I have not always known that there was a god
Just learning that he existed was a lesson I only recently was taught
I don’t know if I found him or he found me
I do know that he’s always been watching
And even though I am just a drop of water in an ocean, he cares about me
I have learned that he is not responsible for all the evils of the world
Lost and misguided people are the ones who are
Behind the most beautiful things in the world, you will always find him there
And even behind the most painful ones as well,
He is there to help you and not to further your pain
Ask and thou shall receive
I have never spoken directly to him,
But I know he can hear me whether I speak or not
Even though I have not spoken to him I can read the signs he sends
I know that I am not crazy
And that people will always want to label you and judge you before they help you
I have learned that I have much to learn, and that I always will
I have learned that having doubt is normal, but as you grow as a person
Doubt is something you must let go to move on
Let go of the doubt, and the insecurity,
Do your best to hold on to the faith and always remember.
He is real

All of us by Cesar Reyes

All of us
 
In some ways, I think we all struggle
I think we all have our story to tell
I think we’ve all failed
As many times or even more than we’ve succeeded
I think we all cry, when no one’s looking
We’ve all had our hearts broken
I think we all feel lost sometimes
I think we all have some lifelong challenge we have to just keep fighting
Some days we all suffer
We may not all be suicidal,
but I do think there are days when we wish we could disappear
There are days when we all feel abandoned
Everyone is born as an innocent child
The lost innocence is a shame that everyone carries
We all know what its like to own nothing, except your own problems
we all know the taste of tears
I think we’ve all felt helpless at times
Like we hadn’t a friend to confide in
I think we all have more to be thankful for than we give thanks for
I think we all would like to help, but never do
I think we can all be selfish sometimes
We all procrastinate to be better
In many in ways I think we all have more in common than meets the eye