Ratera. By Cesar Reyes

Me robaste mi tiempo
Me robaste mi amor
Y ahora cuando miro al futuro
Ya no me queda el valor

Te robaste mi alma
Te robaste mi corazón
Quedaste gravada en mi mente
Como una triste canción

Me quitaste mis sueños
Pisoteaste mis esperanzas
Domas con pensar lo que me hiciste
Me da grima en la pansa

Te valió puro gorro
Te valió pura madre
Ya cuando supe la mujer que verdaderamente eras
Se me hiso muy tarde

Lessons in Pain. By Cesar Reyes

I learned to live with pain

I found out that a fractured heart can heal itself even if it feels like it got hit by a train

I learned to control my anger

I found out how to ignore those who hurt you and treat those bastards like total strangers

I learned how to not cry

I found out that little by little, tears eat away at me and cause my soul to die

I learned how to just move on

i found out that dueling on the negativity in life is just wrong

I learned how to live in peace and tranquility

I found out that you can be alone and not feel lonely and that doing so can be an admirable ability

I learned how to know when it is that your feeling loves powerful emotion

I found out that it's simply a beautiful, painful, tearful, angry, blissful distortion

I got too many things on my plate. By Cesar Reyes

 I got friendships that were not meant to last
I got feelings of love I wish were left in my past
I got compliments from people who say my poems are good
I got insults from people who hate them and say at least I did the best that I could
 I got enemies out there who want me dead
 I got regrets in my heart for things I wish Id never said
I got the urge to want to drink my problems away with a bottle of Hennessy
I got actual friends that are friends with my enemies
I got fears and aggravations that I’ve never defeated
I got milestones and goals that I’ve never reached or completed
 I got a hard time being happy cuss I’m not familiar with cheer
 I got a hit list of enemies who I want to make disappear
I got to learn how to not fall in love
I got only one chance to make it into the golden gate up above
I got so cold one time I literally felt it down to my bones
I got a feeling, I’m a end up drunk and alone
I got to keep my enemies a lot closer than my friends
I got to worry less about how things start and control how they end
I got a memory of me smiling , but then again It might have all been a dream
I got only one best friend , but then again , nothing is ever what it seems
I got a tear that just refuses to fall off of my eye
I got a bad reputation with people, but in reality im a really nice guy
I got caught up one time in my own lie
I got to try to buy a fake ID and see if there's a new life I can buy

Somewhere deep inside. By Cesar Reyes

It is not a simple thing to want to keep the peace in this thing we call life
What seems like such a noble goal
Has a trail built on sacrifice
 
Constantly feeling pressured, as though the walls are closing in
Being judged and labeled by others
Without them knowing the battles where you’ve been
 
On some levels I feel that we are all trying to hide
Trying to keep a balance inside the world
Without losing a drop of pride
 
But when the normality that others live by,
becomes a set of norms from which you cannot abide
At the very least try to maintain your own peace somewhere deep inside
 
 

Salvation. By Cesar Reyes

 Im working hard for my salvation by my own hand ,

Any other way , and I would not consider myself a man
 
All that’s required is already in my possession

All the mistakes ive made I just consider valuable lessons

 Im trying to convert my ideas into reality
before they fade or I get rotten

Ive chosen a road , long thought to be lost and forgotten

 I feel like the world left me behind and no one hears
the words that I say

Im a dreamer by night time and a wanderer by day

Often pondering my existence , and truly believing that I am forsaken
 
Trying to paint my soul , before it becomes just another one that society has taken

 All I want out of life is to be considered and to be remembered

For people to say that no matter what pain I endured I prevailed and never surrendered

 I understand that tears are a part of life
And that my eyes may drop some here or there

We’re all lonely people, but I don’t think anyone’s aware

The alternative to these things in life is to conform into society’s mundane creations

So it looks like ill have to be the creator of my own salvation

Confessions of an unknown man. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes I have had to put up fake smiles
Even when the inside of me doesn’t agree
I can afford car payments
But cant afford to be angry, because certain people just wont let me be
There are moments of silence that feel like forever
I’ve done scandalous things in life, but I don’t feel bad
Sometimes I just want to be left alone
Despite what I said its ok to be mad
I have been made fun of, and I have been insulted
I have put my trust in people who I know have a reputation of lying
I have cried enough tears in my opinion
And have felt so much pain, I’m surprised I’m not dying
I have felt so empty inside
That I’ve literally looked down to make sure my insides are still there
Why do bad things happen to good people I ask
At times I prey for the courage to tell god he’s not fair
I have been in love
And I have also had my heart ripped out and destroyed
I have felt so weak at times
 I could not even be helped by any steroid
I’ve been lied to my face
And my so called friends knew all along
I guess shit just happens
And life somehow just goes on

Persevere and try. By Cesar Reyes

Throughout the failure and the sorrow
When you helplessly want to cry
When pride is something you must swallow
Still you persevere and try
 
When you carry a weight on you that feel like boulders
With a drop off point that turned out to be a lie
And even though you feel like you can’t continue with so much crap on your shoulders
Still you persevere and try
 
Life is a freefall from the get go
But we all do our best to fly
Part of living is learning how to let go
We all have the same end, but still we persevere and try
 
I know I paint a gloomy picture
You can judge and label me as you will
But somewhere it is written deep in scripture
That we must persevere and try still
 
This isn’t a poem about rainbows and butterflies
Or about why roses are red and violets are blue
Its more about a soul that silently cries
Spoken daggers that speak  nothing but the truth
 
 
 
 
 

Never. By Cesar Reyes

No one will ever love you as much as I do
 
I will never love anyone if I ever lose you

 No one will ever give you the smiles that only I know how to make

 I will always wait for you as long as it takes

No one will ever defend you to the extent that I would

 I will gladly give you my heart if I could

No one will ever work for your love as hard as I will
 
I will always be there for you and understand every feeling you feel

No one will ever sacrifice as much as I have
 
I will do it all over again, even if it simply made you glad

No one will ever take care of you the way I have even on your darkest day

I will always come through on every word that I say

No one will give you as many memories as you and I have made

I will always be 100 % sure that my love for you will never fade

No one will ever appreciate your cute subtle ways

I will never abandon you, my soul is yours until the end of days