In Between . By Cesar Reyes

I smile too often to be depressed

I frown too much to say I'm happy

I've hurt too many people to say Im weak

I've given up so many times I cant say i'm strong

Im too paranoid to trust anybody

When I do trust people, I get betrayed

I'm too young to understand

Im too old to feel scared

Im too smart to be a drug addict

Im too stupid to recognize my own worth

I have too much to say I'm poor

I don't have enough to keep me going

I feel too much pain to say I'm dead

I feel too empty to say I'm alive

I don't have enough reason to keep on believing

But I have too much faith in my heart to ever stop

Letting Go. By Cesar Reyes

 
For every goodbye
I have to remind myself that not everyone is meant to be with you forever
So you should appreciate them, while you cross paths in this short thing we call life
 
For every goodbye
I get sad, and I feel like I’m losing something inside of me
It feels like I’m losing a part of my life that always felt familiar
 
For every goodbye
I have to let go a little part of my heart
And I pray that that person takes good care of that little part of me, wherever life takes them
 
For every goodbye
I take a minute to sit down and reminisce
And I am reminded of all the reasons I am going to miss that person
 
For every goodbye
I wonder if Ill ever see that person again
And if I should run into them many years from now, will they greet me as a friend, or walk past me like a stranger
 
 
 

Fallen Dream. By Cesar Reyes

I close my eyes and dream
That I have a different life
That I live in a cloud
That I don’t remember what tears are for
 
I close my eyes and dream
That I can breathe peacefully on a never before seen beach
That I live in an ocean with underwater rainbows
That I can jump out of the water when I get tired and fly away anywhere
 
I close my eyes and dream
That pain has nothing to do with love
That happiness won’t always be a pursuit,
That it is an actual destination
 
I close my eyes and dream
That I am swimming inside a single drop of rain
That that rain drop falls inside a rose
That that rose is given to the girl of my dreams

I still believe. By Cesar Reyes Torres

When all about me, I was surrounded by pain and sadness
God laid out a safe path for me to walk on
When I strode away from that path
God forgave me and let me come back, and continue the journey he laid out for me

When I felt like I had no way out of the prison I had put my life in
God opened the door and set me free
When I failed to find a reason to continue moving forward
God gave me a purpose

When I was tempted by distractions
God kept me resolute and strong
When I stumbled to the ground and felt that I couldn’t move past mountains of despair
God picked me up, he moved those mountains, and he let me proceed

When I thought I had done all that I could do
God gave me the hope to say to myself, do a little bit more
When I grew tired and weak from the journey
God gave me the strength to keep going and show others that I still believe

One step forward. By Cesar Reyes

I was just closing in on my destination

And for a split second I lost my concentration

I stumbled and fell

And nobody helped

Today my destination seems farther

I try my best , but as I get older, life get harder

I cant go back because I don't know where my journey originated

Whenever I try to fix things, they get more complicated

One step forward and never look back

Every time I fall and get up I wonder where my friends are at

Im the friend who nobody wanted, but who they occasionally needed

The one everyone forgot about, but who came in handy when life got heated

People around me live life faster

But I have found that not taking things step by step is a formula for disaster

Lately i've enjoyed just walking and deep breathing

Im proud of being able to stand on my own two feet, and not having to be
Constantly pleading

I keep on walking and I often wonder where Im at

I just keep telling myself,take one step forward, and never look back

Poor People. By Cesar Reyes

Poor is the person who thinks that they will take all their wealth beyond the mortal soul that god has given them

Poor is the person who values the material that is given, over the soulful reward that is earned

Poor is the person who only sees with their eyes and not with their heart

Poor is the person who cares more for themselves than they do for others

Poor is the person who invest all their love into vanity

Poor is the person who has nothing to look forward to when they come home

Poor is the person who believes that love has anything to do with money

Poor is the person who gambles their soul in the belief that there is no god

Poor is the person who takes joy in the misery of others

Poor is the person who succeeds by making others fail

Poor is the person who can help others but chooses not to

Poor is the person who has no friends to confide in

Poor is the person who believes all of their evil deeds have no consequence   

Poor is the person who does the good lords work only because they expect a reward in return

Tired. By Cesar Reyes

I got tired of caring about people like you who didn’t give a fuck about me
They make you devalue your worth,
and your good qualities are sides of you they’ll never appreciate or even see
 
I got tired of giving and giving and not even being acknowledged for the things I did everyday
I wasn’t looking for praise, but a simple thank you would have gone a long way
 
I got tired of waiting for you to get your life straight
I don’t need your constant bullshit around me, or the drama you always seem to create
 
I got tired of being your backup, and being treated like something that got stuck to your shoe
The person you only called, or texted when you had nothing to do
 
I got tired of thinking of a reason for why I still keep you around
I thought long and hard, but that reason was one that I never found
 
I got tired of trying to change into the kind of person you could see in a different light
So take care, god bless you, and have a nice life
 

Life is good. By Cesar Reyes

I can no longer cry

I am finally able to peacefully sleep

I wish to live and not die

The smile on my face is one that I think I might keep

I've said it before but I believe it more now

Tomorrow did turn out to be a brighter day

I am able to laugh a lot more, I vanished away all my frowns

And everything turned out to be okay

I have forgotten the taste of tears

My back no longer bears the weight of a thousand boulders

I have worked hard for this day over the years

And I know feel angels behind me, with their hands on my shoulders

I know moments like these never last

That a bright sunset is only beautiful untill the darkness of the night

But I am no longer tormented by my past

And all darkness will fall, when again comes the light

Sometimes I cry. By Cesar Reyes

Sometimes I cry and there is not enough optimism in the world to help pick me up off the ground

I set out to go find myself , instead I ended up lost and not found
Warm tears roll down my cheeks but i can feel them in my heart, and in my heart there stone cold

Each one represents one fucked up story that will never get told

The emptiness sits inside me , like blank shelves that use to hold something meaningful

I work hard everyday , but happiness for me isn't achievable

I have a fake smile and a fake voice, they are the essential masks that I wear

But god knows they don't belong to me, to me they're just a disguise I have there

Catastrophe follows me, and making mistakes is the only thing I seem to be good at

I gave my soul to a girl and she traded it in for a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of jack

I have a place to sleep at night , but I have no home

People ask to many fucken questions, thats why id rather live my life alone

Im trying to forget the shit I put up with every fucken day

Silence is my only friend, because it never has a damn word to say

Everyday I give up on one dream, and at night I sometimes hope god can take me peacefully in my sleep

Maybe he can make me a spirit so I can travel with the wind and never again weep

I keep my head down and blend into crowds, so people who think they know me cant see me

People enjoy my poetry, but wouldn't want to be me

If you think im being over dramatic, you can read it all in my eyes

And when you look deep  enough you'll say to yourself," I understand why he sometimes cries" 

Dreaming. By Cesar Reyes

I float in the middle of the sky at sunset
I make love to the girl of my dreams in the middle of a cloud
In the middle of a kiss we fall through the cloud
Still in that same kiss,
We open our eyes underneath the middle of an unseen ocean
We look in each others eyes, and we see eternity
The ocean falls and disappears around us
I embrace her with my arms around her
Two souls inside one heart
We stare at a still sunset that never falls
We share one last hug
Then we share one last smile that lasts forever